Halloween

All I can say is happy halloween to my babies (lexy's 1 st one). I miss you guys so much and love you with all my heart<3>

No Sleep Here

I just cannot sleep it's 12:05 am. I am so tired yet I am so restless. I just don't know how I am going to get through not having my kids right now. I am thinking about them sleeping looking like the precious angels they are. I miss Jack calling out mama bear or kissing me saying i wuv you mama bear. I miss my Lexy screeching away. I have been praying a lot tonight and just hoping god answers.

Worstt Day Ever

Ed and I had an argument. A petty damn argument. My sister called the police b/c it got out of hand. Now here I am. Alone. The fight got physical the man that I love so much put his hands on me and yes I hit him in my own defense. His mother took the kids when we were fighting and when the cops came they said he has physical custody so I couldn't have them. Now my heart is broken. My children are my life my whole world and now he has taken them away to punish me. If he doesn't give them back tonight I guess he next step is to file for custody through courts his could take forever it could be forever before I see Jack and Alexis. I jus want to hug them and tell the I love them so much.

Pumpkins rot quick and what went on this weekend

Yeah I had to throw my big pumpkins in the trash. Note to self pumpkins rot real fast when indoors......especially when Ed has the heat up. So this weekend the town had their halloween parade and judging after. My mnchkins didn't win anything so next year I am going to think of soemthing creative. (wish I had a camera for that). That is what went on sunday....we also had dinner at my moms. saturday night we went to a old mansion ghost tour where people dress up like those who used to live in the house and tell their story. It was really cool. Friday night we did pumpkmin carving with Ed's family at his mothers. So we actually had a busy,busy weekend. For some werid reason I cannot turn my font white I guess everything has it's glitches.

Pumpkins

Fragile x Syndrome

I looked up fragile x syndrome and honestly it worries me. I worry that he got it from me. I worry that my daughter could have it (she's developing normally now) or she could be a carrier. I hate being in the gray not knowing if he does or doesn't have it. anyways if you want more info here's a website on it http://www.fraxa.org/

Peditrcian Update

Jack had his appointment and I don't know what to think. He has to have genetic testing to see if he has something called Fragile x syndrome. Plus in 6 months I have to bring him back to be tested for autism. I am afraid and Sad right now. I don't want him to be austic ( I and his Ot dont think he is) I am afraid that if he is he won't have a normal life. Which I know is a crazy thought. He is social, he talks,plays and interacts with other kids. I know no matter what the outcome is he will be normal. I just wish everything wasn't so up and down with him right now. He is progressing so much in therapy to where I honestly belived he was going to be caught up. Now with what the doctor said I feel like we've taken a step back . All I can do I guess us pray and hope god will se us through.

Developmental Pedrician

I am so thrilled. I just got the call and they had a cancelation. So tomorrow at 1 we have an appointment. his orignal appointment was for March which seems like forever away. hopefully we will hear good news:) I will be back tomorrow with an update:)

Diaper Change!!!!!!!!!!!!

I thought I smelt something a little funky. I was right. Jack walked over holding his diaper handed it to me and said diaper change momma bear. Than walked away. of course I ran after him with some wipes b/c he made a poopy.......ahhhh I think it's time for tiptoy rigtain.....aka potty training.

Weekend Plans

Saturday night Ed and I are going to a mansion history tour. I went last year and it was great. People dress up as the people that lived there and they tell the history of "themselves". After that they are having a soup dinner.

Sunday I think is the town's halloween parade. I am thinking about wether or not to dress the kids up and have them walk in it or not. Maybe we will just watch it I don't know.

Take your belt and shove it

Dear Vacuum manufactures,

With all the advancements we have made in technology you think you could make vacuum's better. Of course not you have to make them have these dumb rubber belts. Well my belt broke and now I am left HUNTING and wasting precious gas and energy trying to find a new belt. Oh Yes I know I could log on to your site and order the so called belt. You would like that wouldn't you? For me to pay more money for one plus wait 7 business days for the dang thing. Is that why the stores seem to always be out of stock??????????? Well Big Business I am on to your scam and I am not going to fall for your tricks..................................................So you know what you can take your belt and SHOVE IT!

Sicerely,
One P-d off SAHM

5 Things about me

1. I was born a month early

2.my favorite food is a tie between taco salad/chicken lasagna

3. I have been with Ed 3 years (and had 2 kids in that span lol)

4. When a shoe hasn't been around I have killed small spiders w/my hand

5. I am afraid to drive a car ( I am 22 and I do not have even a permit)

National Day for infant and pregnancy loss

Today is the day to remeber all those babies who have been sent to heaven. I for one am very lucky I have never had to expiernce this. So keep those families who have loss a baby in your prayers today.

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What's been happening

Sunday we went apple picking (sorry no pics :( Jack had tons of fun of course he was more interested in the apples on the ground then the ones in the tree. Saturday was a lazy day we did nothing and the biggest highlights were going store to store looking for Roseanne season 7 to complete the series which no had. so we pre-ordered it. Then off to Target to pick up a shelf.

Therapy Update

OT is great as usual. Jack's motorskills are coming along really good. He is doing zippers and taking his clothes off. He is also getting better at using utensils.

As you know Jack has a new ST and she's great. Jack has really flourished in speech since starting with her a month ago. He is saying 2 word phrases and every once in awhile three word phrases. He is learning to take simiple directions.

This is not really a therapy thing but Jack now is starting to realize when he poops and says I pooped (waiting for him to pick up on the pee pee thing). Which means potty training is not far behind.

So Darn Sick

I have been feeling coldish the last few days but today I feel like a semi-truck has hit me. My nose one minute all stuffed up the next runny. My head kills (which means head cold). Ed's ma took Jackman for a but so I was able to get an hour nap while lexy napped as well. I thought I had the chills but I don't I was just cold lol turned the heat on and put a sweatshirt on and I am much better:) Ed gets home in an hour and a half and I cannot wait because I feel like CRAP!

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Grateful for my family

I came across a blog tonight. about a family I do not know and the lose of their beatiful little girl Audrey Caroline. I was born catholic but I am not very religious. I do belive in god but don't really feel connected to him really. This family's story brought tears to my eyes. reading this story truly touched my heart and made me feel closer to god. made me stop worring about the obstacles and negative things in my life. Made me grateful for the good things and for the beautiful family I have. check out this amazing story and keep this family in your prayers.
http://audreycaroline.blogspot.com/

My Favorite Time

Finally October so now it's my favorite time of the year. The next 3 month strech (besides May b/c thats my ja ckman's bday). I love Halloween not to mention I am a scary movie buff. Usually around the 13th all the scary movies are on TV. Also Halloween is on a Friday this year which means staying up all night watching scary movies and eating candy (which is not on the diet).
Then comes Thanksgiving the holiday of piggery. My mouth waters just thinking about it. Then Lexy's Big Day.....her first birthday. Then my most favorite time Christmas. The whole month of December puts me in a great mood. I am anticpating xmas morning how excitied the kids will get:) Just gives me a warm and fuzzy feeling.

I Wish

I really,really wish my life was more interesting but lately nilch has been going on in it. Saturday I went to my nieces birthday party. Where we participated in normal bday activities like cake,presents and a pinata. This weekend we are going apple picking with my mom.