Court

Here is what happen. b/c of Jack's therapy he still has the kids. Now I have set vistation so I guess we will see how it goes. I miss my kids so much it hurts. In all honesty I haven't slept to well since the incident I just cannot wait until I can see them. I just wish I had the power to make there father feel the way I do on the 29th. See how he feels when he's on the floor screaming for help b/c it feels like his throat is getting crushed. Or to be left in an apartment alone with no transportation, no money crying and afraid. Afraid b/c He hurt me and the fact that he took our kids and I didnt know where they went. I wish he could look out that window and see my family laugh and have a grand old party b/c I hurt him physically and emotionally. I wish he could cry himself to sleep b/c I wouldnt let him see the kids he cared for since birth. But I don't have that power and he honestly does not care what I have been through. I trusted him with my safety and my heart and it was betrayed. All I keep thinking about now is my poor kids. They probaley think I abandoned them when it is just the opposite of that. My kids are being used as a weapon to control me and that's not right they don't deserve that. Anyways January 20th is the next court date and I will be counting the hours until then.