Merry Christams

Merry Christmas everyone

I will be back as soon as I can to post pictures!!!!!!!!

Christmas is expensive

christmas is expensive. I spent $350 dollars on christmas gifts alone. When it comes to christmas I go a little crazy. I just love shopping for people:) I am so excitied for christmas I cannot wait to celebrate with my children. I am a little sad that I do not have my kids christmas eve. So I won't get to expierence the joy of watching my kids wake up and see the tree all lite up and the gifts santa brought. That does truely break my heart. I am trying to not let it get me down there's nothing I can do about the current situation. So anyways I hope everyone has a happy holiday and has no trouble finding last minute christmas gifts.

Ice Storm

Thursday we had a wicked bad ice storm. Lost power for like a day and a half or so. So I had to miss my vistation with my kids but I had to think about their safety. Which also means I had to cancel Lexy's birthday party:( With christmas coming up I'll be having it in January. So back to the ice storm. Transformers blew everywhere I was actually awake when it happened in the middle of the night. looked like green lighting. Then with the weight of the ice trees were just falling down and shattering like glass. Schools are closed and so many people still don't have power. Thank god no one I knew got hurt because of the storm.

Alexis Charley

My baby girl turns 1 tomorrow. Her father has her for it so it breaks my heart that I am missing her very first bday. Next weekend I'll celebrate making it through that first year with my baby girl. anyways I thought I would post a birth story in honor of her day (like i did with jackman).

December 6th I headed to the hosptial at 6 for my schduled c-section. I wasn't nervous I had that been there done that kind of addtuide. I got prep. for surgery. My parents cam ein said hello and then waitined in the waiting room. I walked into the or. Last time I was wheeled in. The spinal sucked. I could feel every prick and it hurt. I also think it took longer than usual to put in for some reason. They gave me a oxygen mask which I hated I swear I felt like that thing was suffocationg me not giving me air lol. The whole surgery I was so anxious and tired I couldn't wait for lexy to be here and to get some shut eye. At 8:31 am My little princess came into the world crying up a storm. She weighed 8.11 and was 21 1/2 inches long. She was perfect all 10 fingers and toes and a head full of dark hair. Happy early bday my princess mommy loves you<3

Been Awhile

I don't really have to much going on. I had the kids this weekend. Like always it was tons of fun and I hated giving them back because I just love them so much. So far I have had 2 vistations without a problem from their father (will see how long it lasts). I am nice for the most part but it's hard to be when I think about all the crap he put me threw a month ago. I miss not being with my babies everyday and that makes me sad but I am completely happy that I am not in that realtionship or situation any more. Oh yeah I got a part time job which I am happy about because it's a big step in the right direction to help me get back on my feet. Starting over is so hard but I think it will be so worth it in the end.