Jack's Finally is There- Potty Training CHECK!!!

Jack has been a little behind on the whole potty training thing, Yeah He turned 4 in May and was still in diapers!!!! This week he finally accomplished this milestone. I can say he is officially wearing underwear and using the potty all by himself :) I am so proud of him he is growing up fast and becoming so independent. No matter how old he gets he will always be my little Jackman, my baby :) I love you Jack!!!!

Finally found a new job

I finally found a job working stationary at Wal-mart. ( yupp good old wally world again)! Yeah it's a job and I have bills to pay so I am satisfied. I am still looking for a second job as well, I want to make more money maybe get out of my parents house soon and back out on my own. Of course maybe I was never on my own, I had the kid's dad supporting me.........this time I'd really be out on my own completely independent.....which makes me scared but smile at the same time :)

General Anxiety Disorder

I don't think I have ever mentioned this to many of you before, but I was diagnosed with anxiety about a year ago or so. Anxiety has really sucked for me. I have had panic attacks where I felt like I was dying. I have had moments of anxiousness and expecting negative events to happen for no apparent reason. I have insomniac behaviors at many times. The scariest thing I go through is the fact that I am overly stress and can't handle it at all. I get stressed in situations a person should not get stressed in, My stress leads to sometimes angry outbursts, a lot of tears and thoughts that I am crazy and losing control of my life. My doctor put me on Lexapro but it's stopped being effective besides the fact that I don't like taking medication I don't even take cold medicine. Lately I've been trying natural remedies for it, like exercise and yoga. I am also going to start talking to a counselor, talking to a professional might help me learn to cope with my anxiety. I hate having anxiety and I just want it to go away. I don't know if I have always had anxiety or not.......I never noticed it before until I started having panic attacks within the past 2 years. I am hoping with all the new things I am trying combined with possibly the old I can get past all these feelings and start to feel better.

Applications, Applications!

So Jc Penny never called which highly annoys me. Come on were all adults so when you tell me your calling telling people regardless if their hired or not I expect you to. I know it's scary there management but put on your big boy panties grow a set and call please! Anywhoo.... I filled two more retail applications out and put six locations down between them both so hoping someone calls and gives me a chance. Yupp almost 3 months in the unemployment pool and I am sooooo tired of wading in their and I want to get the heck out and make some money.

wow how times flies and life changes

I have my blog for 3 years, I just read through many of my old posts and I am shocked at how much has changed in my life. Some entries made me smile and remeber all the good moments like Lexy's first tooth or the silly stuff Jackman used to do. Then there were memories that defintly brought tears to my eyes........bad memeories about splitting with Ed and being apart from my kids. Re-reading all those entries really has shown me/ reminded me how strong I am and what I've accomplished in my life.

Job hopefully

I had an interview with Jc penny on Wensday, they're suppose to call me at some point today to let me know if I got the job. I think I did really well in the interview Sooo I hope they do chose me. For now I am playing the waiting game.