Suffocation

I feel like I am suffocating. Like I am Falling or drowning and nothing is going to save me or protect me. Maybe I am having just a bad day or maybe I just bottle up the little things that rip me apart until every so often it explodes. Or maybe I am just a broken person, to many bad things have happened in my life to allow me to be happy. Or maybe I don't want to come to the terms with the fact that the way I feel is just me nothing caused it and since I've been born this has always been me. I don't know what it is, or why I even wrote this post. All I know is I am alive but I am dead inside.

Jack turns 6:)

May 3rd 2006 my Jackman was born. I cannot believe it's been 6 years already. He is really developing into his own person. He has his own opinions and thoughts about everything and anything.  He is also just about done with kindergarten. Seems just like yesterday he was my baby :/ What I am about to say is very cliche but so true.......they really do grow up to fast.

Happy Birthday Jack mommy loves you with all of her heart.

Whats been happening.

I haven't posted in a while, just been busy I suppose. I am doing non-instructional subbing at one of the local elementary schools where I live. It's been going good. I am also still helping out in daycare as well. I really think I am going to save up money so I can do the teacher aide certification but also to pay of some of my school debt so I can go back and get my early childhood degree. That's whats been happening with me.

Jack:
He has been doing really good academically in school, he has a few behavior issues that were working on. We have also been planning his birthday party ( he turns 6 in May). He wants a hotwheels party its so adorable. His motorskills are doing much better as well, however his teacher wants him to get another ot evaluation ( will see what happens with that).

Alexis:
She's same as always full of additude lol. She is also doing really great in preschool :) Litttle lady's sweet tooth finally caught up with her. She has to have some caps and fillings put in her teeth soon.

Jace:
He has been going through a tough winter season, He has bronchitis 4 times, pneumonia once, and also had a febrile seziure  (Due to a high fever). Oh and a small bough of pink eye. He's doing much better though now:) He is also crawling and sitting up all by himself:)

Joe:
well Joe <3 is doing good. He's been working his new job at a hvac company and he really likes it : )

Christmas Time!

Lexy turned 4

Wow!

I just realized how long ago my last post was. I will have to give updates and pictures pronto!

Whats been happening

It's been a month of sickness for the kiddos!!

Lexy had a touch pneumonia. Friday I bring her to the doctor to see if it has cleared up. (Hopefully it has).
Jace has yet another bought of bronchitis.

Jack is my only healthy lol

Hopefully everyone gets better soon :)