Suffocation

I feel like I am suffocating. Like I am Falling or drowning and nothing is going to save me or protect me. Maybe I am having just a bad day or maybe I just bottle up the little things that rip me apart until every so often it explodes. Or maybe I am just a broken person, to many bad things have happened in my life to allow me to be happy. Or maybe I don't want to come to the terms with the fact that the way I feel is just me nothing caused it and since I've been born this has always been me. I don't know what it is, or why I even wrote this post. All I know is I am alive but I am dead inside.