Bianca and Vinny's Birthday

Bianca:

Wow 10 years have really gone by. My little niece is already so grown up. She's sarcastic,so smart and such a great big sister to her baby brother. Happy Birthday Bianca !!!!!!!

Vinny:

when I first met him he was only 10 and now he's already a teenager. Happy Birthday Vin!!!!

6 Days until the wedding

6 days until I am married!.....can't believe its finally here. I am excited and yet I feel like there's still not enough time to get everything done.  The wedding hopefully going to be amazing I have a whole fall theme :) well wish me luck!!!

Welcome Baby Cash

Cash Liam was born July 1st :)

Been a long long time

It's been a long time since I blogged so I figure it's time to get back into the swing of things.

well since it's been 7 months since my last post soooo this is whats been happening
Jack turned 7 and is going into second grade :)
Jace turned 2 :)
Lexy is starting kindergarten in September:)

My sister had my adorable nephew Cash was born :)

and of course I am getting married in 2 months!!!!!!!! :)

Trust

When trust is broken can it really be repaired?  


I want to say yes but deep down I don't think it's true. How is someone suppose to have faith in some one when they've broken that faith a few times.  Everyone has their own reasons to why they  lose trust in someone. Some Cheat or keep secrets. I guess my lost of trust comes from just little insignificant "white lies". Funny thing about those stupid little lies is they string together and soon there's just a giant blanket of lies that have wrapped around you.

I love someone so much but the tiny lies makes having faith in that person near impossible. I want to trust them with every being in my soul but I can't it's impossible. Even if I try some where hidden in the back of my mind is that suspicion. Is he where he really is? Is he doing what he said he is doing? Is he really going to do what he told me he was going to?

I want to trust you and fight for you and hope just hard work puts the trust back into the relationship, but I am losing in faith in that idea.

Right now I feel let down again......................................you think I should just trust you. You don't realize how much I really want to.......just trust you. I wish you could just feel the pain I feel, because I just can't 100% trust you. 

Trust me...........this is not easy for me...........................It's hard for me and I am sure it's probably hard for you to. 

I hope the trust returns